The Selfish One

It’s confusing that you’re never
Going to make the time
To listen to my problems
I’ll take it as a sign
That the care you have is selfish
Aimed at you and you alone
You don’t want strong relations
You can’t build a happy home
You’ve told me I’m not caring
You’ve said I have to raise my game
But if one of us is failing
Then you’re the one to blame
You could have asked me how I’m doing
Could have made more space for me
Instead you started hurling insults
You passed out pain so willingly
Now I’ve seen what you are doing
I can’t rest until we are done
From now our bond is broken
I’m off, away from this selfish one

Intimidate

You walk right at me
Trying to prove some thing
Make me crash or adjust
Trying to score a win
You’ve set your look
You think you are mean
You’re ready for a reaction
But I’m not like anyone you’ve ever seen
I’m calmer than you are angry
Out of me, you’ll never get a rise
Your antics can’t provoke me
My inner power is my surprise
I step aside, give you some distance
Here’s the win your ego desired
You can raise your head this morning
While you slowly wither inside.

It’s you I want to shelter

When the rain falls hard
From a dark brooding sky
It’s you I want to shelter
Even now. I don’t know why?
We’ve not been together
We’ve been so far apart
But it’s you in my head
When I feel low in my heart
What we had was an epic
That rolls on beyond its time
You define real belonging
I was yours and you were mine
I huddle in our shadow
And take comfort from the cold
That even though we ended
Our love does not feel old
There beneath my consciousness
It’s wrapped around my soul
So that when I’m losing hope
I feel it renew my life’s goal
Of finding someone as good
Finding someone just as true
Lifting her into my arms
And loving her instead of you

Broken Dreams

Broken dreams
Surround me it seems
Desires when I was life sure
Are torn apart, no more
A marriage at an end
Friendships I can’t mend
Close family at war
Bruised, battered and sore
You had given me hope
New dreams, emotions evoked
Hand held
Past demons felled
You felt what I felt
Lives meld
Differences were always there
Issues, conflicting beliefs aired
As all else merged
These conflicts diverged
Try as hard as we might
Our love forced them tight
But never together.
This dream wasn’t real
Despite the appeal
Of a new hope new goal
A chance to form one whole
Love. Defining what life means
Amongst a field of broken dreams

No Tears for Change

It’s over
What you had is over
There’s no way to return
That bridge has been burned
It’s over

Move on
It’s time to move on
You can’t keep looking back
Look ahead up the track
Move on

There’s hope
In your future there’s hope
Tomorrow all starts with one step
Make plans. Happiness, you can get
There’s hope

All You Can Eat?

What harm am I
Doing in meeting those
Surfing for dates online
And yet the feeling grows
That this isn’t right
This isn’t good for me
Discarding one, taking another
My mental health’s in jeopardy
See, the more you dismiss,
The more you commoditise
The more you feel numb
And your heart, you neutralise
By all means, sort the pile
Take the chaff from the wheat
But remember to choose.
This isn’t an “all you can eat”

Space to Repair

Silent start to a new day
The voice of my heart, away
My companion of a year
Withdrawn for now I fear
A morning hello, we now forgo
How she is on waking, I don’t know
Our routine, interrupted rightly
We’ve lost the mutual care nightly
A chance for rebuilding space
To stop hanging on for days,
And days, when we know we are done
When we know, we are not each other’s one
It’s a good step for us to pause
Give time, and not a friendship force
Time heals and heads clear
We will repair without being near
I hope we can talk, renew our love
As friends, once we’ve recovered enough

The Food’s Cooked

Table set for two
Food cooked,
I wait for you
You’ve not phoned
There’s no text
WhatsApp’s empty too
I’ve poured the wine
I was on time
And so I wait for you
You’ve always been
Punctual it seems
So why now leave me to hang
Was it my mistake
Are your feelings fake?
Does another your love take?
The foods cooked
I wait for you
Don’t give me more time
To wonder what to do

Love Spoken

We part for the day,
Take care, have fun,
We say.

Spend our time apart,
Good luck, safe journey,
Comes from the heart.

Trust my troth to others,
Miss you, kiss kiss,
Is all one mutters.

A last look, stored to last,
I love you my love,
Enough, until this day is passed.

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